So I say these things like I'm not completely obsessed with a certain someone I can't have anymore and all is well, and I do whole-heartedly believe it, but then I go and have a wonderful but bloody annoying dream and it all just goes tits up!

Whilst it was a strange dream in some parts... like living in a house on an island with nothing but you and a 'state fair' (but still being in uni halls) and the rest of the land disappeared and you could see nothing but endless sky out of your window. But that was a separate dream, and whilst I feel like it'd make an awesome screenplay idea, I can't be bothered to discuss it because it's not that interesting in comparison. And like falling into a 1000+ volt electrical.. thing.. and getting nothing but a tingly arm. I'll walk you through it.

So it was basically last night, we'd been on a night out, and me and daniel walked home (which we really did, and I think we did in the dream too), but we walked a very strange way, it was like through a hedge maze, and then through an electrical factory thing, power plant maybe but i think i called it a fire station in the dream.. very odd. This was where the electric pool thing was. it was just like a hole in the ground where bolts of electricity fired around, and then there was this big metal churny thing which spun round and it would no doubt kill you if you fell in. Well i fell in. The churny thing didn't spin while i was in it which was good but even so, falling into the path of electrical currents at a high voltage would pretty much mess you up as well. I guess I thought I was going to die, i couldn't move for a while, but I eventually managed to stand up and crawl out, and I was pretty much okay except my arm was really tingly. I asked daniel if I was going to die and he said nah, I should be fine. And that was that.

So we carried on walking, it was really long-winded, and stuff happened in between but basically he kept grabbing my hand and i didn't do anything about it and it wasn't mentioned, then a while later he said to me, 'what would you say if i said i wanted to kiss you', and i was like, 'well...' but then i didn't get chance to finish it because I think Lil or someone appeared, and so we were distracted a little while. I think after then Lil and Laura were around so we couldn't carry on our conversation, I can't remember the exact order of things. I said something to him like.. by the way, i'd say id really like that, but then nothing happened a while. I think we held hands a bit more but then we went to sleep in toilet cubicles... I have no idea. A man came round with pillows and stuff, and we all had our own toilet cubicle bed to sleep in.. we even had our belongings there like alarm clocks, etc. It was very bizarre. Sometime later we were stood there, and Lil and Laura were there too and he reached over to kiss me, and i kissed him back, but then he pulled away.. I kind of apologised to him, but he said 'what for?' and then I wasn't sure if i did actually kiss him or just imagine it, but it did happen. A bit later I was sat on the floor, confused what was going on, Lil and Laura came over, I didn't think they knew but they were stood right next to us so duhh, they were like 'well to be fair it's been a long time coming, we knew it was going to happen sooner or later'. Daniel was back in his toilet cubicle bedroom thingy, i was trying to talk to him but he wasn't making much sense, there was something about a cake, I can't remember what the cakes were about but there were two of them, and I kept asking him which cake, was it going to be the £8.50 cake or the £10.50 cake? I think one of the cakes was something to do with me, the other to do with his girlfriend and which cake he chose was like which one of us he chose.. but I never found out.

Apart from the really randomness of the 'fire station' and the electrocution and the hedge mazes and the toilet cubicle bedrooms (lol) it was actually really realistic and while I was kind of half awake i was thinking about how things were going to be today after that, but then i woke up properly and realised it was just a dream. God damnit!

Jo Brand says that talking about your dreams is the most boring thing you can talk about but I don't care.

Edit: Actually, it's fine. I'm in a bizarrely good mood today, lol. I don't know where everyone is though! We need to leave for a lecture in about 30 minutes. I must find them. I was looking through all the pictures we took last night and they made me happy, lol.

Daniel insists on calling my dog Charlie... so now even I'm starting to refer to him as Charlie! Haha.. argh! It's annoying.

I got my new phone today! It's . It's dead nice, but I have to keep it turned off for a couple of hours to register it before I can play with it.. boo!

The weather outside is frightful.

Had a day off from lectures today, woo! Not done anything though :p

Need to know what I'm writing my 10,000 word dissertation on, and also need my story idea for my screenplay. My mind is blank as a white mans bum. Argh!

I really miss Alfie!! :(

That ship has sailed.

Well, the ship never really set sail; it never left the harbour, really. But I stepped off the ship onto the dock, and I'm not sat on it, longing for it to set sail any more. I suppose I'm still looking at it wishing I could be sailing on it, but I happily accept that I'm not anymore.

Then there's the other ship, floating about somewhere in the distance, that I don't quite know what to do with or think of!

[some of that sounds like a terrible sexual analogy... it's not meant to!]

So I survived my 9am lecture- go me!

I'm not feeling too bad today, except waking up with an incredibly sore throat. I just got over a bad cold like a week ago and now I'm getting another one. Bloody 'fresher's flu'.. I'm a third year! I shouldn't be getting fresher's flu!

My lecture was 'Research Methods'.. a 10 credit module that leads up to doing dissertation. Through the last two years I was adamant I wouldn't do a dissertation... but because of the sheer lack of good modules to do, I've been left no choice. So I have about 3 weeks now to construct my dissertation proposal, and send it off to Martin. I have absolutely NO idea what I want to do it on. A 10,000 word essay about something I choose... but what?! Eghads, I have no idea. I thought maybe take a film theory and disprove it, but then I wouldn't know what theory. I suppose I'll have to do some serious thinking.

Too much to think about really; I have to come up with my premise for my screenwriting module too, and I have no idea what I want to write about there. Gotta do me some serious brainstorming.

Oh, sorry, 'thought shower'. We're not allowed to say brainstorming anymore.

One of the modules I'm doing, Alternative Cinema, was one of the ones I was looking forward to doing most, but the choice of films are really lame, and even though I had the lecturer for a couple of modules last year, he's really quite boring and his delivery is just like he really can't be arsed to be teaching. I'm very tempted to change it. The module I'd change to is 'Bent Screens'... gay cinema. Sounds terrible and a bit too homosexual but the lecturer who does it - gay, btw - is VERY passionate about what he teaches, and he makes his lectures very interesting. If you have a good lecturer, it makes the whole module seem better. The thing is, Daniel is changing to that module too, and it sounds petty but if I change too, Lil will just think it's because I'm following him. Since she thinks that's all I do.. when really it isn't the case at all. Pisses me off it does! Just because she will go out of her way to defy or go against anything or anyone... but I'm not like that. I certainly don't want to change modules just because he is doing so too- doesn't bother me in the slightest. I just happen to agree with him that it's shit and boring, and even though Bent Screens isn't a module I was very interested in to begin with, it was MY point that the lecturer is really good at what he does, and makes it interesting and worthwhile with his delivery.

So whilst I don't really want to stick with Alternative Cinema because it's going to be boring (and the assignment choices are crap), I feel like I shouldn't change just for a quiet life. I really shouldn't care what other people think, but it's annoying.

I just want to get through this year as well as possible, doing boring modules is just going to make it drag, I want to make it as easy as possible for myself!